He knows when I’m sad or when I’m faking my okays… He knows me that well. He even cheers me up in a matter of seconds… Pero ako di ko magawa mga ganung bagay para sakanya…
Why can’t I ever be the person he is to me? This entire thing makes me feel so useless. It’s frustrating me because it feels like he always ALWAYS lifts me up, but the only thing I do for him is drag him down.
Lagi ko siyang sinsabihan ng problema ko. Binubuhos ko lahat ng sama ng loob ko. He always takes everything that I throw his way. The thought bothers me because I can’t remember a time this summer when I did the same for him. Never niya kong binigyan ng problema. He always just gives me happiness.
I know it’s wrong to feel this way… Because he always tells me that I should never feel like a burden… Pero hindi nga ba?
He does everything in his power to make me happy. I want to do the same for him… So so much. But sometimes I just can’t, no matter how hard I try.
Sometimes, I just want to keep everything in, just like before, para hindi na siya magalala… Para hindi na siya mahirapan.
I just don’t know what to do anymore, and this is killing me because he means so much to me… More than i can ever show, and more than I can ever say.